Yesterday I posted a video on Facebook to tell all my FB friends about an experience I had a couple of days ago with God. After I posted it, I was made aware that some couldn’t get the video via Facebook and I have a hearing-impaired friend who wanted to know what it was about. So, here’s a written version.
I was mopping my floor the other day during nap time and listening to my podcasts like I do. Cleaning and listening, every day. Mostly. The particular thing I listened to was the most recent episode of Mom Struggling Well with Jordan Watts as the guest du jour. At the end of each episode, the host, Emily Thomas, gives related advice and encouragement. She was talking about connecting with God and said something along the lines of “If you feel like you don’t hear from God or He doesn’t respond to you or you think you maybe just don’t know what He sounds like or how He speaks to you, just ask him to tell you something. He knows how to communicate with you so just tell Him you don’t know if you can hear Him and ask Him to tell you something.”
*Let me make a note here that this is not about asking God to change a circumstance, even though you can do that, this is just about asking Him to talk to you in a way you can perceive. Assure you of His presence.*
So, I was just feeling this way. Even though I have experienced God so many times and He has been so good to show me miracles and answers to prayer, about five minutes later, I forget and feel like I don’t connect with God and He doesn’t talk to me.
Sometimes when I think I’ve heard from God, I start talking myself out of it. Like, that was probably just my own thought and then I built it up in my imagination and how would I know if it was Him or me?
I thought I should pray this. Just ask God to tell me something so I can know I heard from Him. But, I wrestled with it for a minute because then I thought “what if I don’t hear anything?” That can only mean one of two things: 1) He doesn’t want to talk to me and I just couldn’t stand the thought of that rejection or 2) He isn’t really there. But, I prayed it anyway and I told God about my fears and reasons for not wanting to pray it.
So, I got done mopping and it was time to fold laundry. Normally when I fold laundry I like to turn on Netflix while I do it. But, I thought since I had just asked God to speak to me, I better be quiet and listen. So, I kept it quiet and all through the folding, I’m just going “Come on, God. Please. I’m all ears here. Ready and waiting. Whenever you’re ready.” But nothing yet.
Well, earlier that day, right before I started mopping and listening to that podcast, I had received a package from UPS. Straight to my door and everything. I had not opened it so when I got done with the laundry and the kids were still asleep, I decided to check it out. It was two sets of three different devotional/Bible study books. I had made a deal a few weeks ago with a literary agent to read and review one of the books and give a set of three away. Well, out of the three, I chose the one called “Praying with Power.” I sat down on my bed and opened the book and there was my response from God.
Of all the books I could’ve opened right then, and all the things that could’ve been printed in it and of all the whole entire Scripture that could’ve been there, here is what I read. Right in the intro, before I even get to lesson one, the author (Patsy Clairmont), says “God listens to you. He will answer you.” So, that brought a little grin, right? I’m thinking that’s cool. I turn the page and the first thing at the top is Jeremiah 33:3 “Call to me and I will answer you, and show you great and mighty things, which you do not know.” Then, I knew that this is how God was speaking to me. The whole rest of the chapter was filled with verses that confirm we should pray and God hears and He responds. I was so touched that God would answer little ole me in such a sweet way for nothing more than to reassure me in my neediness. I also realized that God had orchestrated all this before I prayed the prayer. He had that certain book delivered to me right when I was going to need it.
I know in my mind that God is there. I remind myself of it frequently. But my wandering heart sometimes forgets. Sometimes I think, “But what if it’s not even real? What if He’s really not there?” So I made the video for me and for my friends as a simple reminder that He is there and He loves us. This situation is not unusual, really. I could start reminding myself right now of all the times He has shown Himself to me and come up with a list. But, it’s easy to forget. So, I made this Ebenezer.
Here are the other Scriptures found in the lesson I read in case you want to read them too. Obviously, I was captivated from the start.
Psalm 50:15, Exodus 23:13, Psalm 5:2, Psalm 116:10, Psalm 17:6, Psalm 42:8, Psalm 116:2, Psalm 65:2, Psalm 86:7, Psalm 91:15, Psalm 143:1, Colossians 1:11
Go. Ask. Seek. Knock.
Come and hear, all you who fear God; let me tell you what he has done for me. I cried out to him with my mouth; his praise was on my tongue. If I had cherished sin in my heart, the Lord would not have listened; but God has surely listened and has heard my prayer. Praise be to God, who has not rejected my prayer or withheld his love from me! -Psalm 66:16-20